No doubt, all Christians face numerous critical moments of faith as a result of suffering, tragedy, disappointment, and so on. We have faced them before and we will face them again. These moments are the “crux” of faith. It’s those moments where there is nothing left to do but trust God or give up. This is what makes faith, faith and the amount of times I have been hanging here personally over the last two to three years is remarkable. In this regard, God is killing me through Exodus right now as I study the story of His people beginning their journey with Him by faith out of Egypt. Particularly, chapter fourteen exposes where I am in this struggle and what God is up to in these difficult if not agonizing moments of faith.
In this passage the ex-slaves have been delivered from bondage in miraculous fashion and are now on their way out of Egypt led by Moses. While no doubt battered and weary, I can imagine the people of Israel are rejoicing at their liberation and the reality of God fulfilling His promise to His people. How awesome it must have been to see the wonders of God in Egypt and be constantly led by a pillar of cloud during the day and a pillar of fire during the night after decades of brutal oppression from Pharaoh and apparent silence from God.
But even at the very beginning of their journey God begins to act in a surprising way. As they are traveling, God gives Moses instructions to “Tell the people of Israel to turn back and encamp in front of Pi-hahiroth, between Migdol and the sea, in front of Baal-zephon; you shall encamp facing it, by the sea” (Ex. 14:2, ESV). Further, God says to Moses in verses three through nine that Pharaoh will witness this rerouting and conclude that the people are wandering and God will subsequently “harden Pharaoh’s heart” and convince him to change his mind and pursue the people of Israel. And that’s exactly what Pharaoh did.
Do you see what God is doing here? He is purposefully redirecting the people to a vulnerable location easily positioned to be destroyed by Pharaoh and his army. In other words God ordained for this to happen. Moses didn’t take a wrong turn. God led them on a detour from their original path to a location at which they would eventually be trapped and simultaneously convince Pharaoh to change his mind and pursue the people. To the naked eye, utter destruction was certain. The people of Israel were at the crux of faith, with nowhere to turn but to God.
Why? What was the reason? God tells us in verse four, “‘And I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, and he will pursue them, and I will get glory over Pharaoh and all his host, and the Egyptians shall know that I am the Lord.’ And they did so.” The point cannot be clearer. God ordains circumstances of suffering and peril for His purposes, and in this passage specifically, His glory. God desired to get glory over Pharaoh. The true God sought to get glory over one who thought he was a god. In addition to Pharaoh, God wanted the entire Egyptian empire to know that He is the LORD, and no one else. At the people’s crux of faith, God wanted to get glory.
As we read this passage and as we face trials of our own, doesn’t it seem like God is doing the opposite of what we think he should be doing? “Surely, this can’t be right”, we say. “I just don’t understand why this is happening?” “Doesn’t God realize what is going on here?” “Does God even care?” “Do you see this God, really?” Yes, Yes and Yes. This is EXACTLY where He wanted Israel and this is EXACTLY where He wants us. Something has happened and we are at a loss as to its purpose and in pain, disappointed, even terrified. We just cannot conceive how God is at work. Let that sink in for a minute. In times like this God has you exactly where He wants you.
This is the first part of the crux of faith. What should we believe? Of which truth(s) should we remind ourselves and rest in? God gets great glory when He works in ways which are inconceivable to us. God gets great glory at the display of His power that goes beyond our own understanding. This almost always involves waiting and periods of seeming spiritual “drought.” In these moments I have been reminded of an uncomfortable grace from God. During these times, God is at work when it feels like He’s nowhere near. These moments should be crystal clear reminders of God’s sovereign hand working in our lives. God is near in the hard times and painful experiences. I am reminded of what James says about suffering. Through it all the Holy Spirit is working in me and producing a more Christ-like, God-glorifying person. As uncomfortable and mind-boggling as it may be, God is working and His is at work through ordaining circumstances of suffering, disappointment, pain, uncertainty, doubt, etc., in our lives and sovereignly displaying His glory through it all.
I’ll end this section with a personal example. Two years ago my family and I faced a terrible tragedy. My aunt (my Dad’s sister) and great aunt (my Dad’s aunt) were murdered by my great aunt’s roommate. If there was ever a test of faith, this was it. This was something we watched reported on the news a million times in the past, but now happening to my family. If there is anything that can undo a person, it’s a tragedy like this. To what or to whom can one turn to for hope, peace, and joy? Nothing in this world. But so many turn to different but unsuccessful means to help cope or forget. Why? So how can God get glory? Well here’s one way. God gets glory when the world sees Christians facing tragedy and yet still possess a supernatural, unshakable joy. This cannot come from anywhere else. Onlookers see something that’s inexplicable yet desirable, a joy in the most painful experiences in life, sustained by God no matter what. Here God gets glory at the display of His power that goes beyond our own understanding.
So does it feel like God is doing the opposite of what He should be doing in your life? Just like the people of Israel, are you facing disappointing, uncertain, painful, even tragic circumstances? We know the rest of the story in chapter fourteen. God conquered Pharaoh and delivered His people in a mighty way. God was on a mission to display His glory through His people to the nations of the earth. But Israel didn’t know this was going to happen at the time. Neither can we foresee what God is going to do in times like these. At this crux of faith, He is teaching you an eternally important truth, that He is sovereignly at work in your life to display His glory and He has the power to accomplish whatever He wills.
And do you know what else God ordained on your behalf? God ordained the suffering and death of His Son Jesus in your place as His greatest display of His glory. Through our repentance and faith in the death and resurrection of Jesus, we can be forgiven and made righteous before God. Jesus suffered. He knows our suffering. He felt every bit of it from the slightest tingle to the deepest blow and just as God sovereignly displayed His glory though the suffering of His Son, He will do the same in your life. He is worthy of all the glory, honor and praise. Amen.